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I'll be loving you tomorrow.. just don't stop, today is not the right time. i will be loving you like you never been loved just give me time to finish the unfinished so i could focus my everything to you. I only have one wish, don't turn your back on me don't stop pulling the thread to get close to me and please never ever LIE on me. For as early as today i am telling you that the feelings can be mutual i want to deepen it more until the love is spurted on the corner of the road. don't you ever lie on me for it can destroy me, every word you utter must be the reason for me to love you more. i want you to know that i trust you now, so that you can never lie on my face just like what you did to others. wait a little longer the time is near we will be together in the closeness you'll never imagine. just don't rush I'll be there no matter what happened.

But if the time will come and all your promises were broke, all your words were destroyed, all your effort are gone.. still I'll be thanking you because one's in my LIFE I've encountered a person who treated me like i never expected. who treats me a Queen and important.so, by the time I'll look back i can smile and feel the bitterness and happiness that ones i encounter a person like you. PHER. :)

care to CARE?

“How can we express our love to others? How can we make others feel that they are special?” Almost all of us will answer that it is by showing we care. Caring is the way of letting our emotions expressed verbally and through actions. But how can we say “it’s enough? That we came to the realization that even how much we show how we care it would never be enough? That the person we cared never appreciates back even how we make effort.

There`s so many instances in my life that I’ve seen people who appreciates every care they have from others. In fact, I grew up caring people I love and special to me. I was 4th year that time when my parents quarreled and decided to separate ways as their child I have left with no choice but to stay with my father in Cebu since I am studying, while my mother flew here in Davao. I was sad…but I was left with no choice I became the mother of the household, the house keeper,labandera and cook. In short I replace my mother`s position. But I never complain for I always put to my mind that I am doing everything for my father, brother and younger sister. in fairness to my father he never fails to provide everything we need just to make it up to us. Graduation is fast approaching and my only wish is to have my mother witness me graduate. My father agrees and talked to my mother. They reconcile and say sorry to each other, they admit their mistakes and get back together. I was really happy and reflected to myself that “YES I WAS CARED” that no matter how complicated things were, the people who care about your emotion will make a way to make you happy. My parents forget about their differences and reconcile for the sake of our happiness. They think about the possibilities of putting an end for everything.


What`s more important in life is how we stand in every trials we encounter, that no matter what happened if we cared about the people, things and - God everything will get back to pieces. For believing that everything will be fine is the best shield for negativity.

IMPERFECT TRUTH

How can we say that what we are acting toward others is enough? How can we determine that we have enough? In dealing with other people most of us will say that we have to be ourselves...We have to be the person we always used to be. But does we realized that what`s essential is us- being us toward the people around and being open to the possibilities of our being imperfect.

I grew up by the taught that I have to be me in any way I can. I have to be the person I used to be since before. But then, every time I feel so misunderstood I always asked myself “is it my fault when I am just being me?” is it my fault when the word comes to my mouth is what really I am trying to say?” is it my fault when they will be offended by my actions?” Reality always hurts… the things that we are trying always to hide are those who will bring pain especially when others will noticed it. I stand always by my thinking that I don’t have to be someone which I’m not to please others.

I have encounter different personality for the past 18 years of my life and I can really say that most of the people I met always misunderstood me. It`s hard to accept, but it`s the reality. in fact, some of my relatives thought that I am the villain in the drama. One instance that really breaks me is when I was in 2nd year high school when almost all my classmates stand against me because they believe that everything I am doing is always against them. I kept quite I never complain. Why should I? Is it my fault when all of them don’t open their mind about the truths that they are trying to run away? I stand about what I believe is right... later on they just all apologize for the reason that it`s not really me who is at fault but them having a narrow mind to believe my classmate-who is at fault and do everything to destroy me for the reason unknown. By this instance I can really say that what is essential to all is the ability to open their minds, to think and understand, to be able to connect and communicate to the people around. Pretentions is not always the cure for everything it`s now the way to escape the truth that no matter how we pretend we will always be left hanging no matter what because we can`t accept the fact. I feel like I am just doing what is right rather than to be accepted by the people by the attitude that covers the smile of the reality.

It`s better to hurt people by the reality rather making them believe that everything is good and fine. I will never be a SOMEONE which I will never used to be. I will never be a SOMEONE who is not me. After all the entire break will be on my hands anyway.