How can we say that what we are acting toward others is enough? How can we determine that we have enough? In dealing with other people most of us will say that we have to be ourselves...We have to be the person we always used to be. But does we realized that what`s essential is us- being us toward the people around and being open to the possibilities of our being imperfect.
I grew up by the taught that I have to be me in any way I can. I have to be the person I used to be since before. But then, every time I feel so misunderstood I always asked myself “is it my fault when I am just being me?” is it my fault when the word comes to my mouth is what really I am trying to say?” is it my fault when they will be offended by my actions?” Reality always hurts… the things that we are trying always to hide are those who will bring pain especially when others will noticed it. I stand always by my thinking that I don’t have to be someone which I’m not to please others.
I have encounter different personality for the past 18 years of my life and I can really say that most of the people I met always misunderstood me. It`s hard to accept, but it`s the reality. in fact, some of my relatives thought that I am the villain in the drama. One instance that really breaks me is when I was in 2nd year high school when almost all my classmates stand against me because they believe that everything I am doing is always against them. I kept quite I never complain. Why should I? Is it my fault when all of them don’t open their mind about the truths that they are trying to run away? I stand about what I believe is right... later on they just all apologize for the reason that it`s not really me who is at fault but them having a narrow mind to believe my classmate-who is at fault and do everything to destroy me for the reason unknown. By this instance I can really say that what is essential to all is the ability to open their minds, to think and understand, to be able to connect and communicate to the people around. Pretentions is not always the cure for everything it`s now the way to escape the truth that no matter how we pretend we will always be left hanging no matter what because we can`t accept the fact. I feel like I am just doing what is right rather than to be accepted by the people by the attitude that covers the smile of the reality.
It`s better to hurt people by the reality rather making them believe that everything is good and fine. I will never be a SOMEONE which I will never used to be. I will never be a SOMEONE who is not me. After all the entire break will be on my hands anyway.
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